I know my parents love me and I know they want to make this all better for me. But that’s not going to happen immediately and it needs to happen on my terms.
Last night we were sitting on the deck and a fairly normal conversation turned into thoughts about me going back to school and what career opportunities I should be looking at. I’m well aware that I need to bring in more money and my plan for is to look for either another part time job or a full time one that’ll bring in more money for this fall. They’re talking in terms of me going back to school for a whole new career. Even if things were “normal” I wouldn’t be able to make such a big decision in a month and a half, never mind the head space I’m in now.
The plan for today was to see if the car I’m looking at is going to work out, then go to work. That’s my plan and lately that’s about all I can handle in one day.
I came down from my shower and my parents are already fussing with the basement. That was the plan for tomorrow, but they’re both down there now.
This is despite the fact that I told them I couldn’t handle more than the car and work today. Just hearing them move around down there is stressing me out.
I know they just want to help, and having never been in this situation they don’t really know how, and getting stuff done would seem to be the most rational thing to do.
But things aren’t rational right now and neither am I.
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